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# I Will Become
- URL: https://www.belonging.house/i-will-become/
- Published: 2026-10-11T23:17:14.000Z
- Updated: 2026-10-11T23:30:56.000Z
- Description: Christianity isn't a set of beliefs plus a moral checklist. It's Christ living in you, and learning to let His life move from the inside out.
- Author: Christ John Otto

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I will become more aware of Christ in me, the hope of glory.

We are shifting into the practical aspects of the 12 I wills, and what they mean for those who make the Belonging House Commitment.

By the way, we will be receiving new members into the house on November 1\. If you would like to make the Belonging House Commitment,  
renew your Baptismal covenant,  
or join the community,  
let me know.

This I will,  
I will become more aware of Christ in me,  
sounds very spiritual and theological.  
It's not.

Many people operate under the misconception  
that Christianity is a set of beliefs or doctrines  
and then after you embrace them  
you try to live a life according to a set of moral standards.  
And of course,  
this is a recipe for failure.  
In the last few decades  
people have come up with a way around this,  
where you just change the moral standards  
and make it easier to be a Jesus follower.  
You can still embrace the belief in Jesus and  
you don't have to change.

Charismatics add a ripple to this misconception,  
that you can believe the right things  
and have an experience  
with the Holy Spirit.  
That experience can make it easier to believe the right things  
and be a moral person.  
And you have an unstable experience between being  
religious and being spiritual.  
These folks go up and down a lot.  
It is uneven.  
It doesn't work either,  
and the revival police online will attack you  
at your perceived  
hypocrisy.  
Never mind theirs.  
It's a gloomy vision of the Christian life.

St. Paul gives us a completely different vision:  
In II Corinthians 5:17, Paul says:  
If any man is in Christ  
he is a new creation,  
the old is gone and the new has come.

A lot of modern translations will use gender-neutral language  
for this verse,  
and that obscures the meaning.  
What Paul is saying here,  
is that if you are IN CHRIST  
you are a new kind of species.  
You are something that never happened before  
in the history of the universe.  
You are now a "Redeemed."  
You are now a "Holy."  
You are now  
a fallen human being  
who has been reborn  
into Christ,  
and in that birth  
you are now part of a new nationality,  
a new species,  
and you are different.  
And that difference is  
because of the Holy Spirit.  
Jesus said in John chapter three that the only way  
to become this kind of creature  
was to be born again by water and the Holy Spirit.  
He was talking about baptism.  
You are born into this body.  
And when you are born again,  
Jesus Christ comes and lives in you.  
As Paul says in Colossians 1:27  
that the mystery is Christ in you  
the hope of glory.

Christ is living in you.  
And Paul talks about this many ways  
and in many places  
as he did today in the epistle lesson.  
Because I am weak,  
Jesus can be my strength.  
In I Corinthians he says we have the mind of Christ.  
And Jesus says,  
in John 15,  
that if you live in me  
and my word lives in you  
you can ask anything in my name and I will do it.

This is the mystery,  
that if you are a Christian  
it is not about right religious beliefs,  
and right morality.  
It is about becoming more aware  
of the presence of the Messiah  
living in you  
through the Holy Spirit.  
Jesus in you  
can move through you from the inside out.  
This is what I mean  
when I say  
that God works from the inside out.

When I was a youth,  
I studied the Strasberg technique  
of method acting.  
I am going to oversimplify this,  
but the basic idea  
Lee Strasberg  
taught was if you can recall an emotion  
or a memory from within,  
your outside behavior as you create a character  
will change.  
This "method" will be more effective  
than if you try to take on the qualities of a character  
as outward acts.

Strasberg believed the character came from the inside out.

What's interesting  
as we work with people in healing ministry,  
that subconsciously,  
many people are directed and controlled  
by old memories and tapes,  
and these create sick and painful behaviours.  
When we bring these things to Jesus,  
and learn to forgive and release them  
the outward behaviour changes.

When I first attended a Leanne Payne conference in 1995,  
she opened with a very powerful statement.  
"Many of you are broken  
and you express that brokenness in all kinds of ways.  
If you are a Christian  
I want you to tap into the place in you  
that is whole.  
There is a healed place in you already.  
Jesus lives in you,  
and that place where he is  
is a completely healed and healthy place."

I have been learning for thirty years  
how to become more aware of Jesus in me,  
and then how to get out of the way  
to let his healing and wholeness out.

There is truth in the prayer that many pray,  
"God there is no sickness in heaven  
so we call down that healing to manifest."  
Jesus said to pray this way.  
Come Kingdom of God,  
be done Will of God.

Eventually though,  
this slips back into religious thinking:  
I have to do something to get this  
to manifest on earth.

Let's reframe this.  
You are a new creation,  
because Jesus lives inside of you.  
So imagine that there is a place inside of you,  
that is completely and utterly blessed,  
fulfilled,  
complete,  
and whole.  
This is the place where Jesus already is.  
He is there.

For a long time in the house of prayer  
we sang passages from Revelation.  
If Jesus is God  
then some of these things do not make a lot of sense:  
Riches,  
honor,  
glory,  
power,  
wisdom,  
and might.  
All these things are already his.

One day I asked the Lord  
about this,  
and the Lord said  
that when we worship him  
and ascribe these things to him  
they get poured back into his presence in us.  
We receive  
wealth,  
power,  
riches,  
strength,  
as an unintended consequence.  
This mystery of Christ in us  
is very great.

The Pentecostal preacher, Marilyn Hickey  
used to have a TV show,  
that honestly, I mocked.  
She ended her show every day by telling the audience:  
"Today is the best day of your life,  
because Jesus Christ lives big in you today."  
Marilyn Hickey knew the secret.

What do we know about Jesus?  
Every name in heaven and on earth is under his.  
He is the creator of the universe.  
He is the holiest person in the universe.  
The Universe is constantly growing, so we must infer he is growing.  
He is the happiest person in the universe.  
He is the richest person in the universe.  
He is going to rule and reign over all things.  
He is the source of all health, strength, and peace.

That's a lot of things to work with,  
and a lot of stuff in that you might need.  
So Jesus said to Paul,  
My grace is sufficient for you.  
The word we translate grace  
is "charis" in Greek,  
and that is the Greek word used for "chesed"  
in Hebrew.  
Chesed is translated,  
steadfast love,  
or lovingkindness.  
In other words,  
practical love toward us.

So this verse is not saying,  
Paul, I am giving you the grace to be a stoic  
and suffer under this miserable affliction.

No, Jesus is saying,  
my practical steadfast love toward you  
is enough for you to manifest my perfect strength  
in your weakness.  
My strength can come through  
and you can experience strength  
in this moment.  
This isn't about Paul developing his stiff upper lip.  
It is about being in a weak place, and learning how  
to manifest the strength and power in it.

And Paul did learn this lesson.  
He was stoned to death.  
And in that moment  
with real pain and injuries,  
he reached inside and said,  
Jesus  
you are the strongest person in the universe,  
and you are the Resurrection and the life.  
Holy Spirit,  
manifest the life of Jesus through me  
and help me get out from under these rocks.  
And in Acts it says,  
the disciples gathered around him  
and Paul was alive.  
And he went right back to teaching.

Wow.

This is very important,  
and it is not theology.  
This is practical Christianity,  
because many of us  
if we follow the call that God gives us  
will need to learn these lessons.  
The world of the arts and culture  
is dangerous.

Let me give you a few examples from my life.

Yesterday God told me to go to Boston ahead of some friends  
who were called to worship around Massachusetts.  
And when I got there,  
God said,  
stand.  
Don't pray,  
just be.  
Often this is what God will ask me to do,  
just be the presence of Jesus in places.  
Jesus in you  
will change the atmosphere.

I have seen this with money.  
More than once  
I was traveling overseas  
and my bank account was hacked.  
The worst time was while I was in Israel.  
In every case where this happened,  
instead of panicking,  
I paused.  
I said,  
Jesus,  
you are the richest person in the universe,  
and all the wealth of nations belongs to you.  
I need your wealth right now.

In one case,  
a person handed me £200 in cash.  
Another time  
a Palestinian bus driver picked me up and gave me a ride  
even though I had no money.  
Later on I learned he saved my life.  
And many times  
God has met the need even before I asked.  
Jesus was manifesting his wealth in me,  
and sometimes  
he was attracting wealth to me.  
But it was not me,  
and not anything I was doing.  
It was not some weird New Age "law of attraction."  
It was Jesus in me.  
Jesus in you,  
the one who knows all things,  
holds all things,  
and orders all things  
knows what you need and will bring it to you.

Jesus said,  
do not worry about when you are called to account  
and have to testify.  
The Holy Spirit will speak through you.  
As many of you know,  
I lived in Great Britain without a visa for almost eight years.

One day,  
I came up to the gate at Gatwick Airport  
and the border guard noticed  
that I only had a one-way ticket,  
and that I was making a lot of trips.  
That pattern will get you flagged when you travel  
around the world.  
The guard asked me a question,  
and I opened my mouth  
and started to say something that sounded smart.  
The man smiled,  
and had a very nice conversation with me  
and stamped my passport.

That evening, in the course of reading  
on UK Immigration law  
I found a paragraph  
and it was a loophole in the law for US citizens.  
I had spoken that paragraph,  
verbatim  
as if I had memorized it,  
to the border guard.  
At that time, an American artist or a writer could be in the UK  
for unlimited extended visits without a visa  
as long as they didn't stay longer than six months at a time.  
This was the loophole that allowed me to be a missionary  
without a visa.

This was the mind of Christ flowing out of me.  
This was the Holy Spirit in me, giving me the words at the moment.

And the last is a story I have shared many times  
but it best illustrates this point.

In 2019 I decided I had to "bite the bullet"  
and go into London.  
I didn't have enough money,  
and I didn't have a place to stay.  
And so I bounced around at cheap Airbnbs and hotels  
and lived hand to mouth.  
One day,  
I was walking along the street in London  
and I had nowhere to go.  
And then my back went out.  
All I could do was hobble over to a tree  
in Hyde Park  
and sit there.  
I sat down under a big oak next to the Albert Memorial.  
I was out of money,  
and so I said,  
"Jesus  
you are the richest person in the universe,  
and I need somewhere to go."  
And a few minutes later,  
the Lord told someone to send me a few hundred dollars.  
I found an Airbnb,  
and then I had another problem.  
I could not lift my bag,  
or walk.  
So I stood up,  
and I said,  
"Jesus you live in me.  
You are the strongest person in the universe,  
and I am weak.  
I need you to carry my bag for me and help me walk  
to the hotel room."

I picked up the bag,  
and it was weightless.

I will become.  
That means  
you will grow,  
and you will increase.  
You will learn more and more  
that Jesus lives in you,  
and his life in you  
can shape and change you.

And so,  
when you are in that difficult situation  
with someone  
you can ask Jesus to manifest and work out of you,  
what you could never do yourself.  
Understanding the reality of Christ in you is going to change  
how you understand your relationship with Jesus,  
and also the language you use when you talk about your life in Christ.  
Graham Cooke said,  
you can move from a visitation culture to a habitation one.  
As you become more and more aware of Christ in you,  
you don't have to try to get God to come.  
God is here.  
God is in you.  
God is within you.  
And of course,  
this ultimately means  
God is not in a building or a program.  
God is in you  
because you are the temple of the Holy Spirit.

And when you come into greater agreement with this truth,  
then the outward manifestation in your life  
will change.  
You don't have to try harder,  
because you are now in a dialogue with Jesus  
and Jesus is guiding you,  
leading you,  
and shaping you  
into the image of himself.  
And when this happens,  
people know that you are his disciples.

And when you are in an audition,  
in an art gallery,  
in a university classroom,  
or dealing with people who are coming from a completely different point of view,  
you can trust that Jesus in you,  
will give you everything you need.

I will become  
more aware of Christ in me,  
the hope of glory.

Next week,  
I will live a life of generosity.